People suck.
:’(
Is it normal to have everything in your life seem absolutely perfect but not be feeling anything? Like something’s missing but you don’t know whay it is? It makes me fear that I’ll never be 100% happy
Guys are so predictable, it’s just stupid. You have to find your gem among rocks, i know that sounds terribly lame but it’s true. I have an amazing boyfriend and I’m so happy cuz other guys are just stupid.
See the thing that sucks is everything is going perfect but people keep bringin you up and revealing all this informtion that I didn’t know until now. You complained about me… That really shocked me and it kinda hurts. Complaining now makes sense but then? Was I living in my own little world where everything was perfect when it really wasn’t? That’s what it’s starting to feel like. If that’s the case… How did I escape that world or worse… Am I still in it?
This has been a crazy rollercoaster ride but today was absolutely amazing and I can’t help but be happy. If I don’t think about it then I’m fine. I cried my eyes out all day Sunday but now i can’t sit in my room crying, I have to keep busy, I have to clear my mind of the memories that are too much to handle this soon. I am happy and I am proud to say it.
I think I just really need some hugs, some genuine people to care. You’d be surprised how happy people can make me by just showing they care in however grand or small the gesture.
What the hell is the point? If 100% isn’t good enough I don’t know what more you want but I can’t do it. I can’t be perfect, no matter how hard I try I’ll never truly be amazing. I might be great, but not amazing, not awesome, not wow and not spectacular. Everything is all ending so fast and something for years I’ve wanted I’ve finally obtained and now that it’s ending I’m not as distraught as everyone else, that’s just today though, be Saturday night who knows.
